Running on an inclined treadmill for several minutes now, I struggle to catch every next breath while trying to keep my knees from buckling. Just one more minute and I’m done. At this point – lungs burning and screaming for air, heart pounding and begging for repose, legs tiring and starting to cramp – my oxygen-deprived mind is as clear as it can be.
That was an almost-daily scenario for me a few years ago. In its own way, the act of running even on a treadmill seemed to give me the illusion that I was able to run away from my problems and responsibilities. And then during that last minute right before the timer slows the belt to a cool-down walk – that whole minute when I’m gasping for air – there’d descend a rare peace of mind, a serenity even better than any tranquility attained by the bottle.
I guess when you’re fighting for your life or at least fighting for the next breath, every other thing pales beside colorless oxygen, and every other thought gets drowned by your muffled cry for air. And as endorphins are released into your oxygen-starved brain, it’s one of the best natural highs a person can experience. Too bad it only lasts a short time and takes too much trouble to achieve. But it’s worth it.